i’ve lived most of my life with ‘what if’ in the back of my mind, what if i talked to her? what if i quit? what if i ended it? then i graduated to ‘maybe’ maybe i’ll talk to her, maybe just stick around for the experience, maybe the ending it was a tad dramatic […]

they say these are the golden years but i wish i could dissappear or at least find a way out of my head i’m always feeling anxious afraid to be alone it’s like the walls are caving in they keep telling me that it gets better but does it ever? i don’t want to be […]

what a curse to be understanding but never understood sometimes a simple ‘are you okay? ‘ could save someone all am trying to do is have peace in my mind i don’t want to be a hashtag am tired of surviving i am okay not being okay i don’t have to be always strong being […]

we’re born astride the grave so get some love in your life whether that be another person or just loving your self love is life life is living you want a good life it’s not complicated tell the girl you love that you love her tell the truth to everyone whenever you can there is […]

they say that youth is wasted on the young, but for me i think that life is wasted on the living y’all are so fake and such drama queens from the hour you’re born you begin to die birth is a curse, and existence is a prison when you know that you not coming out […]

Just sitting here after smoking a blunt watching this beautiful film, waiting for someone to text or call me just to check on me, Thinking about how no one loves meDepressed and high laughing at this beautiful daddy daughter moment and wishing i had me a daughter to look at me like that Then it […]

hi there, it’s been a while since i decided to write something, i was all caught up, trying to participate, but i still haven’t figured it out yet fortunately i missed the writing part of me, so i decided to drop something do you know that we start dying at the moment we are born?? […]

i have been racking my brain all day to find a better way to send of 2020, how was i going to end this year, what was i going to say (write)?? what i came up with was, what i am thankful for this year? i found out that am thankful for alot of things […]

life is the theatre of the unpredictable you know somewhere someone is, dying, getting robbed, winning the lottery, abused, beaten, treated horribly people really go through a lot and it happens every day it’s just a cycle of hurt people hurt people i am a professional overthinker existing is exhausting i don’t sleep i dream […]

what is it to be human? what is it to be alive? what is more beautiful than death? i don’t know ive been thinking too much help me i feel fear, anxiety, loneliness and darkness busy with unhealthy thoughts i always feel like am always shouting i am here but nobody seems to hear me, […]